Hello! It’s been a while… About four months in fact since the last time I posted something on the blog. I’m not sure why… Mostly just life getting in the way and sucking up all of my enthusiasm for pretty much anything! Leaving me feeling meh.
My work has been super busy… As a teacher April, May and June is just silly season, getting kids ready for their exams. I’ve also not been feeling 100% either, having scans, hospital appointments and now I’m booked in for an operation. It’s just kind of culminated in a general feeling of meh.
Feeling Meh is crap. No one wants to read about feeling meh.
But maybe they do? Maybe we need some reassurance that actually feeling meh, is totally normal and to be expected at times, and that actually all you can do is crack on and wait for the ‘meh’ feeling to pass.
Which is kind of what I’ve been doing.
The last few months I’ve felt even more than ever that I’m at a crossroads point in my life. Everything feels a bit out of kilter, and I’ve been trying to work out exactly what it is that I need to do to move forward.
I think I may have come to a conclusion…
I’ve already talked a bit on the blog about the kids growing up, being independent and how it makes me feel a bit rubbish, a bit lost. I think this feeling has been made worse by the fact that I have recently discovered that I am now infertile, and it’s a possibility that my upcoming operation is going to send me hurtling into a premature menopause.
Even though I don’t want any more children, and I know how blessed I am with the ones I have… The fact that I can’t have a last minute baby is actually an emotional minefield. Who knew?!
Also did I mention I’m too young for the menopause?!
The thought of the menopause is certainly giving me the ‘meh feeling’ I can tell you! But I think writing about it might help. So I’m back!! Hell I needed a ‘real’ challenge to write about didn’t I?!!!